Almost done with my week of hell

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I haven’t been posting very often in the last week and a half because I’ve been constantly busy - I have a 3-5 page paper and a huge programming assignment due tomorrow. But I’m done with the paper and the program is basically done. I have four hours tomorrow to write up the last part of the report and add a couple things that are straightforward and won’t require debugging (cross your fingers).

This blog only existed because of my com arts class, but I’ve grown fond of spilling my guts (not quite spilling everything though) to this thing we call cyberspace. I am a big fan of technology, but I’d like to write about more than just technology-related topics. Seeing as how the semester is almost over, and I’ve already reached the 15-post mark needed for the class, I’m going to branch out a little in terms of my writing subjects. Part of the requirements for the assignment mandated that I blog about a specific topic. This, however, limits my creativity and causes me to search for something to write about when in reality I’ve got a lot to get out - just not always about technology, although it is on my mind quite often!

I’m pretty proud of the way I’ve worked this week. I actually dedicated the majority of my days to school-related activities. Usually I don’t do that. Usually I just kind of hang out, which is nice because growing up as an only child makes you require time spent alone doing absolutely nothing productive, but not necessarily unproductive, either. Now I see that if I had utilized this work ethic throughout the entire semester, I would be happier with the grades I’m about to get. The thing is that I don’t always enjoy working my ass off all the time. I almost never work my ass off to get my grades, and when I do it’s usually a labor of love if it’s something I’m passionate about. I hate working my ass off on something that I don’t care about. It’s hard to stay motivated. I think I would be a lot more passionate about my AI class if I didn’t have some of my other classes to deal with. The programs we have to write are challenging for me. I can do them if given enough time, and we always are given enough time, but the time given doesn’t always coincide with time free of looming deadlines for other classes.

The other night I came to the hasty conclusion that I don’t like programming and that I’m going to graduate with a degree that basically guarantees me a profession doing just that. But I also know that in CS 302 I really did enjoy writing those programs. I was damn good at them for the most part. I just wish I had better skills in Java, because CS 540 assumes you know a lot of basic things like how to read a file efficiently. Those are things that I never really learned in college. I also really like designing circuits and I think that I would enjoy both careers, either in software or in hardware design.

But the real love of my life is music. And I don’t think that many of my friends here know that. My friends in Reno do, but that’s because our lives centered around music. Playing music, listening to music, concerts, jams, writing, etc. I have musically inclined friends here but feeling out new jam partners is so awkward, even when you know them pretty well. I’ve decided that if I ever get a chance to tour with a band, for six, three, or even one months, that I’m going to drop everything and take the opportunity. I like technology, but I’d much rather make a living as a rock star or studio musician. I mean, if I could make the same amount of money, but doing music instead. That’d be sweet.

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